Thank you W for your question.
It would certainly benefit a lot of other readers.
It is not uncommon to have such feelings, especially if you might have religious, cultural or personal issues that forbid having sex at the moment. And especially if you feel that you would like to say no and reject the boyfriend but feel uncomfortable to say so.
You could see a psychologist or a gynaecologist or GP with interest in sexual medicine. Otherwise, take care and always use condoms.
