Sorry to hear that you’re going through such a tough time. Individuals struggling with eating disorders often experience low mood, and these symptoms are very frequently associated with stress.
It appears to me that you’re actively seeking help, which is a good sign. However, as what has been pointed out, it may be good to stick to one psychiatrist and/ or psychologist whom you feel comfortable confiding in, for treatment. Treatment for depression and eating disorders can take years, and recovery can be and will be a difficult journey. Having multiple therapists may confuse you further as they may have different approaches to your problems.
I would also like to explore why your mum isn’t keen on medications/ therapy, even though they have definitely helped you. Is she concerned about potential addiction to the pills, or long term side effects? Perhaps you can raise these issues with your mum/ therapist and engage in dialogue to address her concerns. Family support can speed up your recovery!
Lastly, I hope you’ve turned 21. Happy birthday! With your newfound adulthood, you can make treatment decisions for yourself too. Please go forth and seek the treatment you think benefits you the most.
Good luck!
